I feel the exact same way! I grew up with many things as a child. I didn’t realize what it meant to have clothes, food, water , etc. i always wanted more and I believe I was a super stubborn child. I am also white but I still feel like I don’t experience white privilege as much as many of my friends or other strangers. We can’t just go around judging one another without knowing our backgrounds and our nature of why we are the way we are. You never know the battles that one may face in life and sometimes when people start to joke around about the struggles of someone the jokes can often lead them to go over the edge and feel bad about themselves. Societies definitely shaped to help the “white man”out and has never really backed up the idea of supporting minorities. Everyday struggles have a significant impact on a person yet they still store it inside because who’s going to sit back and feel bad for you? No one.

I myself having lots of things growing up felt guilty because some of my friends didn’t have much. I’d often bring my friends toys or food from home because I knew they didn’t have what I had. The smile on their faces always made my day and I always made it a point to help someone even if it was a stranger. The same thing goes for me today. I may help a homeless person out, a friend out or just a random stranger. I’ve learned to appreciate everything I have because one day it can be gone in a blink of an eye. Capitalism is everyone’s enemy even when you have everything you desire.

If we let it all go and sit in silence, (without exploited spiritual practices either), what would we hear, what would we be, what would we desire without guilt or shame or self-righteousness.

I struggle with this too…